This note was written by Lyna Nguyen 9 months before she left this world but not without putting up a fight, not without Living her last few months the best way she knew how and not without letting her Spirit soar much higher than her hopes. I hope to remind those who have lost your loved ones that there is a bittersweet yet long-lasting peace found in the death of our loved ones. It is not immediate nor is it an easy place to come to. But when you can finally bring yourself to come there, you will exhale the longest breath of your life thus far. And you will feel a settled wave of tranquility and bliss resting in You. When we can find the beauty in Death and accept it as a part of who we all are, we live our lives face to face with it. Without fear, without wasting precious moments and without holding in meaningful words and keeping it locked from the people we love dearly. Lyna found that and if we could take anything away from her, it would be to live the best way we know how and to always to be true to our innermost Self. Happiness comes not from the temporary or the short term gratifications of the material world. Happiness comes from a place of knowing and understanding the deeper levels of who we really are. In mind, body, soul and spirit. Today Lyna would have been 25 years old. Those who remember her might be saddened that she is no longer here but I can truly say sad I Am Not. At peace, I am. They never really leave us and there’s a greater peace in knowing that they rest in the endless and Eternal ocean of Bliss. And more importantly, she rests and lives in Me, in You, in us all as your loved one lives through You. And with this, I leave you these timeless words passed and gifted to us all:
“This is my thank you note to all my friends and loved ones and some thoughts floating around. It amazes me how much support and love I have received from you all.
I can’t thank you enough for all the words of encouragement and care you have bestowed upon me. Yeah my life didn’t go the way I planned, as a matter of fact, it went the total opposite of what I planned. I thought that beating this Leukemia the 1st time was my path to happiness. It changed me and it made me want to live my life to the fullest.
But what does it mean to live your life to the fullest?
Idk if I make sense…my head just thinks so much. All I know is that from this experience I’m learning to communicate with my mind, body, and soul. To keep in touch with who or what I really am is hard.
I think that’s what they mean when people talk about “lost souls”. Maybe, I’m not sure…I question myself a lot. And in those questions are doubts and fear. I try to stay positive as long as I can but sometimes it gets so overwhelming that I don’t know what to do with myself. My motives with God is a mystery, sometimes I don’t know if I’m doing it out of fear and selfishness or if I truly do believe their is a divine God out there that loves me so. We humans go through our entire lives not enjoying life cause we compare ourselves to others. I’ve done it and I still do it. My path may be the path less traveled for someone my age but it has given me so much wisdom and insight in my life. This process is a long journey, I worry every day. Its like a full-time job yet a healing process at the same time. Not only am I fighting this cancer but I’m fighting my mind. Just promise me you will be near me when I go through the biggest and most dangerous hurdle yet. This transplant. I will need motivation cause I know my mind will wonder off in the dark and sometimes I’m scared it won’t ever come back into the light. As a christian I know that I should give my everything to God and let him handle it, but as a human I can’t help but feel that he made other beings so we could connect and learn to love through him. I can only hope to see your familiar faces again. Thank You. =)
In Loving Memory of Lyna Nguyen
July 21, 1989-June 28, 2010
In Love and Light,
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